HTHT

I love it when friends share with me what are they thinking/feeling/experiencing. It makes me feel much closer to them, and it gives me the feeling that I am being trusted. To me, a good relationship (friends/lovers/family) really needs a lot of communication and letting the other party know about your life is a pretty good way. You share with them your joy, your sadness, basically everything because you know that they care and they want to know too.

I wish I can share my feelings with people comfortably too. I do voice out my thoughts, but thoughts aren't feelings. Sometimes I wish I could put aside the rational voice inside my head and portray what I truly feel inside my heart. I think the only time I really do share my feelings is when I'm in a state of breaking down. I sob, I whimper, I need someone for me to cling on too as I spill out my fears. I'm not afraid to say that I am vulnerable, because it is true. I dare not be sad because once I am, it is hard for me to get back on my feet. I crumble, I don't know what else to do besides crying. I feel all lost and worse of all, I push people away when they come to me, expecting them to come back but no, not all will understand that.

I don't know why am I saying all these now. Hahahah I'm not sad or anything. Just a random thought after having a talk with a friend a few days ago. To be honest, I'm surprised that so much was said, for we're not THAT close. Somehow I'm a little envious how some can share so much with another with ease. Oh wells, we're all different aren't we?

Okay I should get back to my notes. Accounting mid-terms tomorrow and I've just started on my revision. Sat was spent on IVP Track&Field and Sun was spent on Halloween Special: Ghost Whisper marathon. Ooops.

So sweet!!!

My dear is attached to Ruben now and they are so sweet together!! Zomgggg I'm gonna melt. HAHAHA looking at the way they interact really brings a smile to my face. HEHE I'm here staring at the monitor watching korean dramas and they are behind me, talking about I-don't-know-what-cuz-I-don't-eavesdrop. Could keep them laughing every now and then though. AWWWW. Yayyy I feel so happy for them. Sweet sweet love! Might be the n'th time I'm saying it but I really super love it when my friends get attached. Though it's none of my business but it's really so sweet to see them basking in happiness! =DDD!!

For you, if you think you need it

I believe that everybody is vulnerable in their own ways.

Don't stay strong if you can't.

Let yourself collapse; help is on the way.

Cry if you must, we're all human.

Sound out for help, for a sign of weakness shows that you're still alive.

You'll never walk alone.

Random

Been so long since I last came back here and I don't know what should I blog about.

Mummy misses me so I'll be going home on Friday.
Steven called me today and it's great to hear that all is fine over at Taiwan.
I'm falling ill soon. Been coughing and I'm desperately trying to stop it from getting worse.
Biz Law 2K words essay is due soon and I've not typed a single word yet.
I just found out 2 days ago that there's a FM quiz after recess week.
And I found out a few minutes ago that Accounting mid-terms is less than 2 weeks away.
I'm going for Nike City 10K Challenge and I hope I won't die.
I need to stop procrastinating like seriously.

Goodbye.