One last paper!

One more paper to go before I'm done with Year 2!

Somehow the motivation to study spirals downwards exponentially as more papers are cleared. I remember having a lot of nerves for my first paper, to the extent I had to call home and get Mummy to calm me down. Haha at that instant I really felt like a small kid who needs my mom by my side assuring me that everything will be fine :P

It has been a long while since I last went back home, and I really miss my family members. On Mon night when I was studying in the meeting room, Bro called and asked if I want him to come over and pass me some fruits that Daddy bought from Taiwan. Just to tease him, I said something like "如果你够爱我，你就来 lor" which he replied "Okay la, 我是还蛮喜欢你这个妹妹的，大概十五到二十分钟到吧". Sounds kinda stupid, but I was so touched by his words I started tearing secretly while waiting for him to reach hahaha. I really want to go home once my paper on Friday ends. Not going anywhere else with friends but instead, I'm gonna go straight home and eat dinner with my family :)

Anyway, I was thinking about this incident which happened to me some time ago. Not sure if I said it before, but it's actually a one times good one experience that made me reflect upon myself and realise how flawed I was as person. If I'm not wrong, this was also the incident I quoted when applying for uni haha.

There was once I was at the bus-stop waiting for 190, going to town to meet a couple of friends. When I was stoning there, an old lady approached me, asking me if I could spare her some cash so she could get her lunch. Instinctively I rejected her. She persisted, asking me for just $2. At that point of time, my bus arrived so I hurriedly rejected her again and got up the bus. When the bus left, I saw her approaching someone else. It took me a few minutes for the effect to set in and once it did, I started crying uncontrollably. I really really really regretted not giving her the money. I kept asking myself, so what if she may be lying? So what if she's out there to con people? It's just $2...just $2 and you're unwilling to give it to her. So what kind of person does that make you? I was so disgusted with myself I cried from CCK to Orchard Road hahaha. It may seem like a small matter, but it's a real big deal for me.

I don't know about the others, but I actually donate most of the time when people approach me on the streets. Of course, I'll not do it when I'm around with my friends in case they feel uncomfortable but I think it's better to donate and then feel happy that you've attempted to do something good, rather than rejecting without thinking because you're not sure if that sum of money will be put to good use. But then again, offering to help out for surveys is another thing. There was once I agreed to help out for some breakfast survey thing which they led me into a ulu malu building and then a secluded shop at a corner which scared the hell out of me but in the end nothing happened pheww.

Okay, back to AC213 now! :D