HTHT

I love it when friends share with me what are they thinking/feeling/experiencing. It makes me feel much closer to them, and it gives me the feeling that I am being trusted. To me, a good relationship (friends/lovers/family) really needs a lot of communication and letting the other party know about your life is a pretty good way. You share with them your joy, your sadness, basically everything because you know that they care and they want to know too.

I wish I can share my feelings with people comfortably too. I do voice out my thoughts, but thoughts aren't feelings. Sometimes I wish I could put aside the rational voice inside my head and portray what I truly feel inside my heart. I think the only time I really do share my feelings is when I'm in a state of breaking down. I sob, I whimper, I need someone for me to cling on too as I spill out my fears. I'm not afraid to say that I am vulnerable, because it is true. I dare not be sad because once I am, it is hard for me to get back on my feet. I crumble, I don't know what else to do besides crying. I feel all lost and worse of all, I push people away when they come to me, expecting them to come back but no, not all will understand that.

I don't know why am I saying all these now. Hahahah I'm not sad or anything. Just a random thought after having a talk with a friend a few days ago. To be honest, I'm surprised that so much was said, for we're not THAT close. Somehow I'm a little envious how some can share so much with another with ease. Oh wells, we're all different aren't we?

Okay I should get back to my notes. Accounting mid-terms tomorrow and I've just started on my revision. Sat was spent on IVP Track&Field and Sun was spent on Halloween Special: Ghost Whisper marathon. Ooops.