One last paper!

One more paper to go before I'm done with Year 2!

Somehow the motivation to study spirals downwards exponentially as more papers are cleared. I remember having a lot of nerves for my first paper, to the extent I had to call home and get Mummy to calm me down. Haha at that instant I really felt like a small kid who needs my mom by my side assuring me that everything will be fine :P

It has been a long while since I last went back home, and I really miss my family members. On Mon night when I was studying in the meeting room, Bro called and asked if I want him to come over and pass me some fruits that Daddy bought from Taiwan. Just to tease him, I said something like "如果你够爱我，你就来 lor" which he replied "Okay la, 我是还蛮喜欢你这个妹妹的，大概十五到二十分钟到吧". Sounds kinda stupid, but I was so touched by his words I started tearing secretly while waiting for him to reach hahaha. I really want to go home once my paper on Friday ends. Not going anywhere else with friends but instead, I'm gonna go straight home and eat dinner with my family :)

Anyway, I was thinking about this incident which happened to me some time ago. Not sure if I said it before, but it's actually a one times good one experience that made me reflect upon myself and realise how flawed I was as person. If I'm not wrong, this was also the incident I quoted when applying for uni haha.

There was once I was at the bus-stop waiting for 190, going to town to meet a couple of friends. When I was stoning there, an old lady approached me, asking me if I could spare her some cash so she could get her lunch. Instinctively I rejected her. She persisted, asking me for just $2. At that point of time, my bus arrived so I hurriedly rejected her again and got up the bus. When the bus left, I saw her approaching someone else. It took me a few minutes for the effect to set in and once it did, I started crying uncontrollably. I really really really regretted not giving her the money. I kept asking myself, so what if she may be lying? So what if she's out there to con people? It's just $2...just $2 and you're unwilling to give it to her. So what kind of person does that make you? I was so disgusted with myself I cried from CCK to Orchard Road hahaha. It may seem like a small matter, but it's a real big deal for me.

I don't know about the others, but I actually donate most of the time when people approach me on the streets. Of course, I'll not do it when I'm around with my friends in case they feel uncomfortable but I think it's better to donate and then feel happy that you've attempted to do something good, rather than rejecting without thinking because you're not sure if that sum of money will be put to good use. But then again, offering to help out for surveys is another thing. There was once I agreed to help out for some breakfast survey thing which they led me into a ulu malu building and then a secluded shop at a corner which scared the hell out of me but in the end nothing happened pheww.

Okay, back to AC213 now! :D

Oldies (Y)

Someone came up in my mind when I happen to hear this song.

Apt lyrics haha.

Working hard for exams! It's my bi-annual depressing period whenever exams are around the corner. 4th May 1700hrs and I'll be free!

And then....PA starts on 7th May zzz. Totally not looking forward to it though SSC sounds interesting. It's okay! I need money for camp anyway :(

C!

Interesting thing on Monday: Serious nosebleed that looks so scary haha.

Interesting thing on Tuesday: Found a laptop and returned it to FAL. Haha this is like the second laptop I found within a month? The owner was very nice as well, thanking me and insisting on treating me lunch (which I conveniently stopped replying hmmm).

Interesting thing on Wed: GL-s bidding! Intense feelings of excitement + fear loll.

So many things to do now. 213 and Marketing gogogo!

Ticktock.

You're stirring up the emotions inside me.

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Anyway, I get damn angst by people who clearly know what are my dislikes but willfully place them in front of me just to 'test' my reactions. Too much!

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Insane runny nose on Wed, then high fever on Thurs. Felt so terrible while lying in hall alone. Was crying in bed and really contemplated if I should call home and ask Mommy to save me. Even the doctor who (I guess) thought I was geng-ing went "Woah! 39.4, so high!" when he took my temperature. Physically at my weakest then :(

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Nonetheless, I misplaced my wallet, and I got it back! Yayyy gotta love Eileen! Just damn sian with myself whenever I lose something important. A bit like a used to such feelings but can never get over it because I'll blame myself for not learning. Laptops, handphones, wallets and the list goes on.

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I strive to be a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend. By bitching about others behind their backs is equivalent to not giving them a change to change. I admire people who can speak of the flaws of others truthfully. Sigh oh sigh, why can't I.

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DJJ is going to Taiwan! One way or another I'm gonna go over in Dec to find her. Desperately in need of a overseas trip and I really miss the days we spent in Macau. Then again we can spend our X'mas eve together! :)

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怡妆

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